Barbara Richard

Monday, April 14, 2008

The third book is in rough draft! I've assembled it into a three-ring binder and sent it to a few readers (friends.) I need a hiatus, so I can, in a few weeks or months, approach it with refreshed eyes. I still need to refine the introduction (or it may become the Author's Notes) and the ending. Endings are the hardest. I'm receiving almost daily requests for the new book. I hope I can have it in print this year.

The saddest item I have to report is that my two oldest sisters, two years after the appearance of "Dancing" and a year after "Walking," have decided they don't like my approach, and that they have been given short shrift in my books (not enough acclaim or attention.) After a lifetime of dealing with their rage and denial, I should have expected it. The rancor was sufficient and causing me such angst that I had to block them from my e-mail. It's tragic. I've received an unexpected benefit from the six-year exercise, in the healing and recovery I've experienced. Now I'll never be able to share that with them, or give them pointers on reaching a similar degree of resolution for themselves. But I must not allow myself to be deterred. A good friend, Mary Clearman Blew, gave me a gem of wisdom: "The worst thing you could do is let them silence you." So I won't, but I have to confess that encountering such anger and even hatred creates a burden I have to lug along in my efforts to forge ahead. Such a waste of energy that could be better used writing the stories.

While I'm taking a respite from "Chasing Ghosts" I'm starting the essay that I've been planning for several years--a love letter to my kids and grand-kids, sharing my experiences and conclusions on many diverse topics, and apologizing to them for having to share and suffer from my clumsy, even toxic, journey through life.

5 Comments:

  • At 8:26 PM , Blogger Patia said...

    Not enough attention? Why don't they write their own memoirs?!

    I'm sorry to hear that.

     
  • At 9:26 PM , Blogger Buddhist_philosopher said...

    Hey there, I found you through Patia's blog - glad I did. I recently encountered some of what you are going through, indirectly though, so I applaud your courage in speaking and know the price that can bring. There will always be those who find most comfort in silence. My recommendation, as a Buddhist meditation teacher, is to regularly practice cultivating loving-kindness to your sisters and others who, through their own exposure to a toxic life, have brought hatred into your life. If you're interested, just check out wildmind.org. In gratitude, Justin

     
  • At 4:23 PM , Blogger Barb said...

    Thanks, Justin. I will.

     
  • At 6:16 AM , Blogger Deepak said...

    i was addicted of alcohol for 14 years and now i am sober why and how don't want to know my own story and what i am visit :

    http://de-adiction.blogspot.com

     
  • At 6:17 AM , Blogger Deepak said...

    i was addicted of alcohol for 14 years and now i am sober why and how don't want to know my own story and what i am visit :

    http://de-adiction.blogspot.com

     

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